Someone told me that blogging is therapeutic; I pray that it is. My mind has been racing for the last three months with situations arising one after another. I don’t know who will read this but I thought I would attempt to release some of my frustration. Within the last four months I have lost the woman I love, accepted a promotion on my job, felt the strain of my family relationship, met some interesting new people only to realize that they are simply steps on the ladder and not meant to remain in my life, I have come to grips with my failed relationships and accepted responsibility for my actions; only to have the woman tell me she hates me, and to top it off I found a childhood friend after sixteen years only to realize that I can not have that friend in my life. Now all this is going on while I raise my two children as a single parent. I’m not sure were I’m going with this but I think I will feel better once I get this out. They say that God won’t put anything on you that you can’t handle. I haven’t broke yet but I’m struggling to remain upright. People also say that right before you have a breakthrough things look there darkest. Well things aren’t dark, I’m just not comfortable. I know I’m not the only person who feels like they have almost everything they want. I mean everything except that one thing. My one thing is a wife that is perfect for me, granted I had her and at that time didn’t know how to deal with my flaws, her flaws and her reactions to my issues. The bible says, “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect”. How is this possible? Everyday life stares you in the face, you deal with it go home pick up your bible and read the Word of God, then go back at it and face life again. This cycle never ends and is very tiring. Job had everything, lost it and regained it. I don’t feel like I have lost everything, not even close, but I do feel stripped of some things and I want them back. Well as you probably can tell I’m conflicted I know God loves me and will protect me. But He also promises to bless me beyond my wildest dreams. As I remain obedient to his word and try to live a righteous life. I pray that my struggle will be used to help someone understand that they are not alone. Until next time
Long Live The Kane